What I gathered from our conversation ..

I would be talking to you, and I’d ask you something, and

Suddenly

Your eyes would shift to some neutral, middle-distance -

You were elsewhere - and

If I were to guess, I’d assume

Something’s come up for you, something you felt ambivalent about-

And maybe you shouldn’t share it with me , because..

You’re thinking that I would judge you, or , worse ( for me, anyway )

you’re sensing / that Im looking for that part of you / that you knew was long gone

Because you gave it to someone / that you thought was

Irreplaceable ,

when in fact / it was your

willingness to believe /

that was irreplaceable -

and now , you have to get by

With less -

Less of you

Less of you to give / to another thirsty stranger -

But

Oh, lover -

if there is anything that I can tell you /

words that you would believe - I would tell you

of how nourished I am / with what you have shown me

of yourself / you have offered me manna for my soul

Whether or not / I deserved your affections

Here beside you ; is the river / where I can drink my fill

& not question its source

I can wonder / all I need to /

what brought me here in the first place ?

What sublime navigation / preceded my arrival ?

Everything / led to you

And …

Im sorry - I seem to have drifted off..

You were telling me / about this river / and where it came from

& where its going -

Im listening, love , I hear you

& I see you.. you have my full attention…